An Eventual Retirement

Since my resignation from my clan, it seems I’ve been adrift. Like a little sailing boat with its moorings cut. Lately I find some solace in the WoTLabs forums, but in reality it’s just a place where the unicums congregate without fear of a highly abusive moderator who loves to snort ground up red crayons.

I’ve declined to make any new videos, deferring instead to others like Xiee and Retia to do it. They put out videos of very good quality and in terms of Retia, better gameplay and actual good gameplay. Compared to shittiness I have. Also helps that his garage is filled almost every tank in every line.

As for the game itself? With the mention of the possible introduction of the FV4201 Chieftain (or at least it’s prototypes) into the game, I stick on. I’m looking forward to possibly advancing up the German TD line, but not a definite yet. I don’t really want to retire, considering the sum I’ve invested into this game (possibly $1,000 or $1,200 max in two years), but at this point of time?

I have nothing to keep me interested minus the drive to make my FV4202 crew obtain as many skills and perks as they can. I’m was an ineffective and unimportant member of some circles, and shouldn’t really be sticking around them. I’ve solo’d for a year before I even joined my first clan, and so this change shouldn’t be too bad of a transition back to that.

It’s just feeling lost I guess. And this is compounding with my own work, the stresses in both my retail job and Federal job in which WoT compounds in. All this thing about putting up a good name, stats, tanks performance, play performance. A Pandora’s box opened when I started caring about stats. And while I hate it, I can’t really trust any other metric anymore.

And about the SSD-A and NJG1? Again, adrift, etc, but I think it’s for the better for individuals like myself, who have nothing positive to contribute to it, would stay away from it.

I dunno, I might just need to admit I’m depressed and officially see a specialist, but muh, this is fine.

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About Jusuchin (Military Otaku)

Conservative, Patriotic and an Otaku. Recent grad of George Mason University. I am interested in firearms, politics, Japanese Anime, and military tech.
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3 Responses to An Eventual Retirement

  1. Samuel says:

    Kind of pointless you don’t enjoy what you are doing, maybe giving it a break would rekindle your interest or maybe you could look for something different.

    In case of depression talking with mom works for me, maybe you could try that if a shrink is too intrusive for your taste.

  2. Volfram says:

    This is kind of why I left Eve Online.(that and I expected to be unemployed soon at the time and didn’t want the subscription fee loading down my budget)

    Not WoT-related, but have you looked at the new anime, Tokurei Sochi Dantai Stella Jogakuin Koutouka C3 Bu(Preferential Measure Organization Stella Women’s Academy, High School Division Class C3 en Ingles)? It’s about girls in a “survival games” club at a high-school, and as such reminds me a bit of Girls Und Panzer and Upotte!

    Airing Thursdays this summer.

    • I have, it’s on the to-obtain list. I’ve mentioned it once or twice before, but I’ve quit my second job and using my first one as my primary, and the hours (4am-10am/12 noon EST/EDT) is kinda a killer, but I’m adjusting well. I’ll be looking over that as well as looking forward to more Yamato 2199, as well as probably getting into more WoT videos (I have like, 20 battles in the new patch alone I want to turn into videos, including a steel wall on an FV4202) and more Star Trek: Online (featuring head-numbingly cantankerous Special Task Force missions. Goddamn the Borg Queen and her two Unimatrix lance ships.)

      So yeah, it’ll just be a bit.

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